Don't Call It A Comeback

Days: 35-60

Where: Home

Type of Yoga: Lots of short morning and evening sessions such as:

MyYogaOnline.com Sun Salutations & Full Spinal Moblility

Morning Hatha Flow

Surya Morning Flow

Insomnia Hatha Flow

Get Set For A Good Night Sleep

I'm still at it. To be perfectly honest, it has been rough going, but going I still am. The other day I received a little note from my yogi mentor checking in with me. I haven't been able to go to yoga classes at any studio due to one financial atomic bomb quickly followed by another this summer (why oh why do they seem to come in multiples?). Therefore, I had to temporarily ixnay going to my yoga classes, the ones that propelled me into so much...um...much-ness. It is sososososo not the same doing it at home, but My Yoga Online has saved my asana  fo sho. Thank goodness that website exists at all. 

Not going to the yoga studio was admittedly detrimental. It made it that much easier to skip, lose motivation, and make excuses. I did some of that, again, and it felt like crap, again. So I got back on that horse. I'm doing what works, and most days that means: yoga stretches in bed to start my day, a short yoga online class in the morning, some poses throughout the days' work to keep me going, and then maybe another short yoga online class before bed, or just some calming poses before bed. On the really super crazy days I will do the kids' yoga classes online with them. Funny how I still will be darn sure they get their yoga in, regardless, that's always my back up plan. It works and it is certainly much, much better than nothing.

The bestest news for me is that this is still enough to work me. I continue to delve into lots of deep healing. Letting go of the neurotic desire to explore and dissect and over think the world around me. I am much more interested in the adventures that exist in the world within me.  You can't have healing without feeling, and it isn't always a gas, that's the truth, but my focus has shifted from what makes me "accomplished" to what makes me "blissed" (thank you again yogi mentor, Elizabeth Rowan, for that new-to-me word that I can't stop saying). My new developments range from taking a step back in work (which is probably mind boggling considering the aforementioned financial atomic bombs) and the realization that I am consistently eating Vegan 90% of the time. I even somehow convinced my husband (my alpha male/rugby playing/country boy/meat and potatoes eating husband) to do it with me, he's more 70-75% but I mean...what?!! Wow. I'm quite literally shocking the shit out of myself.  

I often stop and think, "How is all of this happening?". The one thing I'm finally not thinking is "How long until I sabotage everything that is happening?", which then makes me think again "Now how is THAT happening?".  To quote that darling yogi mentor of mine, who reminds me when I ask "How is this?"...or "Why am I that?"...or "I simply can't believe I could this?".
"Yoga." she always says. Yoga indeed.